Stay Positive.

Honestly, Nothing good happened to me this year. Nothing. Everything was terrible. 2011 was the worst year of my life. And i bet 2012 is gonna be no different. I can’t change what happened. All the shit i regret doing. One thing is though i learned the whole party getting high and drunk wasn’t my lifestyle. I tried it and i hated it. Well i mean i loved the whole fact it was so reckless and different but the shit people do when they’re drunk will shock you and that’s why i don’t wanna live that life. I mean i thought at first when i met bryson everything would change and everything would be good but it didn’t. He honestly puts me down more than anyone. He makes fun of me for all the things i’ve done in the past more than anyone and i haven’t told him anything really personal. The only reason we’re friends is because we had some classes together and we played the same videogames and shit. Nothing too big. But i mean i consider him my bestfriend but you shouldn’t be afraid to come to your best friend for advice and i am. In fact he messed up a lot of shit in my life and hasn’t said sorry or even attempted to fix it. I’m not blaming him for everything i know most of all this shit was my fault but like he couldv’e helped me through some shit. 2011 was just bad and i would do anything to start over and change the way people looked at me from the kid who gave his key away to have a party like a dumbass and failed freshmen year. I’d do anything to repeat it. I used to be a straight-A student. People just don’t understand i had to change my medicine and none of the ones i got worked and slacked on all my work. This all happened in 2011. I just want another chance. But i mean even if i got one i’d probably still fuck up. I don’t know.